Yours inconsistent friend

Wrote something when I was pregnant with Attmika kutty, a unnecessary apology letter i feel right now. here it is…

Yours truly inconsistent friend

November 11 2023

My dearest friends,

A letter to you, filled with loving memories!

I MISS YOU.

It's been a while since I have stopped being a regular friend who checks on you, who communicates with you, knowing about your whereabouts, your health, sadness, happiness, career and how you feel now!

HOW ARE YOU? How are you doing? What are you doing ?

Since the end of school, college, and your workplace, I forgot what consistency means. I guess I wasn't a consistent friend to you. Here I am, after a few months of experiencing a different but marvelous life by myself, learning new things silently, but regretting not being louder. In truth, I could not think about everything going on around me with the strength I have. I was more into me unlearning and experiencing myself for the past few months.

Today there is a tiny left out feeling that I experienced from my past world, which is clearly understandable, because I believe we are all growing in a different space now.

It can be a much more different environment for ‘Mother to be’ too.I have been experiencing a lot of challenges as I try to balance my responsibilities to my family, my career, and my friendships. It’s been quite overwhelming at times, and I’ve been feeling like I’m constantly pulled in different directions.

On top of that, I miss spending time with my friends and I feel like I’ve been neglecting those relationships.I wanted to reach out to you because your friendship means a lot to me, and I want to make sure that I am there for you as much as I can be. I also want to ask for your understanding and support during this time. I may not be as available as I used to be, but please know that I still value our friendship immensely.

I hope we can find ways to stay connected and support each other, even if it’s not as often as we’d like. I trust that our friendship will endure these new challenges and that we will come out even stronger on the other side.

Your paru ♥️